Butterflies... I knew R for sometime. I knew of him for a few years by now. I used to see him in the climbing gym with his girlfriend. I used to think I would like to have a man like him in my life... Earlier this year, after I payed of my dept and finally felt happy in years, I met him again in the same climbing gym. He was a great climber, very precise and committed... and way better than me. I chatted with him a few times. I was just having a time of my life... Finally

Hey you, How are you holding on? Can I tell you first? I moved half around the world to escape my daily nightmares... Well... I still cry... I still don't feel anything except pain and cold.. but I don't wish to die anymore... at least not everyday and night. I'm back coaching skiing and I really enjoy it. I knew it when I was coming back that this is going to help me. I used to love helping others... It gives me purpose in life. And this is why I'm writing this blog about