December 8th'25 Whistler
Hey you, I've been here for a week. I've been hoping for a change of perspective or at least some peace. I'm loosing myself in a certain way. I don't feel anything. It's becoming quiet inside me. I still cried while running yesterday. You know, I'm scared of the change in me. I'm scared that I will loose all the feelings I've fought to hold on to. (i'm sure this sentence doesn't make sense and I might retype it later but for now on, it's all I've got.) I skied for a few d
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June 8th'24 7am
Hey you, I didn’t write for an hour yesterday… after seeing him…. I just couldn’t stop crying… again… Just by seeing him, all the wounds opened up again… He smiled at me… probably hoping i’ll return the smile… and we’ll be fine… I was in a complete panic mode and hid…. My friend Claudine picked up on my mood and I cried in her arms while he was watching… We were going for a little mountaineering trip. Taking the big gondola was part of it... and he was there too... At the
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New beginnings Dec 1st'25
Hey you, I just arrived back in Canada. I decided I need a reset - a major one! So I got a job back as a ski coach in Whistler. I need to laugh again I need to prove to myself I'm still a badass!!!! So... Here we are... I left beautiful, sunny and cold and snowy Zermatt and arrived in cloudy and rainy Vancouver.... I wanna inspire you to do something yourself... for yourself.... It doesn't have to be as big as moving half way across the world but It has to be something b
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June 7th'24 6am
Morning… Have you slept a little bit? I’m pondering about my life all together these days. Yesterday, I watched few videos on painting techniques and painted for a few hours… just emerging myself into the painting. In the afternoon the demons took over and I wasted the rest of the day. Now, I’m trying to get everything ready for the day tour tomorrow. xxxx For R “I wanted to talk to you about us. I told you who I was at the very beginning. I told you I was difficult.
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