December 23rd'25 Christmas Whistler

Hey you,

How are you holding on? Can I tell you first?

I moved half around the world to escape my daily nightmares... Well... I still cry... I still don't feel anything except pain and cold.. but I don't wish to die anymore... at least not everyday and night. I'm back coaching skiing and I really enjoy it. I knew it when I was coming back that this is going to help me. I used to love helping others... It gives me purpose in life.

And this is why I'm writing this blog about pain and darkness to inspire you to get through another day... Tomorrow needs you!!!!!!

I know, the last sentence sounds like such a cliche... I understand when you tell me to shut up... Few months ago I would do the same... Now... back in my second home... with people around who love me, with a job with a purpose... I can sleep again...

Ok.. I might be able to sleep because of the excessive amount of outdoor activities and early mornings but at least I can sleep without sleeping pills...

I want to share my new morning routine:

• 4.33am wake up ( I used to love my sleep)

• skin care, prep big cup of warm water, big cup of warm water with Chia seed and lemon, light green tea, black coffee

• 20min work out, Pilates, balance board and meditation (I variate legs, upper body, easy, intense)

• 20min writing; planning the day ahead, To-Do list, things and ideas I came up with over night

• 20min drawing (now, I'm working on my 2025-2026 face and change)

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  2025-2026

• finish skin care

• 6km jog to work (this morning was a beautiful winter fairytale)

• banana and apple to start and muffing for breakfast

• Morning session on skis

How does your morning routine look like these days:

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I wish you that this time of the year you are going on and planning New Years' resolutions. PLAN BIG!!!! you deserve everything you've lost and more!!!