January 5th'26 New Year

Jan 5
1 min read

Hey you,

How did you survive the Holidays? Are you ok?

I cried all over and over again. I ski full time again and it worked for a while. It kept me occupied. But... I needed "me time" and it all escalated.

I feel just emptiness and pain... asking myself why all over again. Why can he be happy and sleep like nothing ever happened while I've been struggling with depression and insomnia? How can he laugh knowing he fucked me up so badly that I still bleed and cry?

xxxx

Have you written some New Years' resolutions? I didn't. I wrote 2026 goals and started to work on them. I've been training every morning.

And for New Year's Eve I took a short video...

https://video.wixstatic.com/video/e001c5_0999263833a548bcaf8d4cffbaee3fa8/1080p/mp4/file.mp4

Slide into 2026

I wish for myself to laugh again... (2nd year in raw).

xxxx

What are your goals and plans?