February 22nd'26

Hey you,

How have you been holding on? Can I be honest here? I don't think about my death anymore. I don't dream about not waking up anymore. I still cry when I run... and still have dark moments.

... but, I'm surrounded by my close friends and people who sincerely see the good in me and keep showing me that I'm loved and cared for. That, If I wanna stay here, I can... It feels great...

The other day, I had a glass of wine (or two...) at my friend's place and I ran into an old client of mine... She reminded me that I'm a great coach and in her own words: "you are so beautiful..." This made me feel some warmth somewhere inside. Thank you for that.

I hope, you have somebody like that in your life. If you don't, I wanna tell you,

YOU ARE AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL AND YOU CAN MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!! Whatever it is, you need to make happen, even if it's just to make it through the day.

You know, I wanted to ask you how is the morning routine going? Let me know...

My morning routine is set... Now, I'm working on my evening routine:

• 30min Blog - write, read, change website

• 30min read - any of the books I have here

• 30min draw or colour

• 10min Pilates and meditation.

• eve uphill training 2x weekly

And I made myself a promise, I will post regularly starting this week.

Cross fingers for me...