Working on the 2025 goals and routines... Are you still working one them?

Wow, last week went by, I don't even know how. I didn't post anything here. I didn't manage a lot. I just worked on my monthly and weekly To-Do lists. I've been struggling with panic attacks and sleepless nights again.

"Healing comes in waves..." something along this line, right? Last 2 weeks I felt like doing 1 step forward and getting back where I was when this all started in June'23. Instead of working on me I just scrolled anything on social media all day long wasting my time... I can feel you nodding.

This morning, instead of going training I stayed home and worked on retyping my book, waxing skis (ski service) and now, writing my blog. These are the 3 big things on my today's To-Do list. You know, I realized that over last few weeks I forgot the golden rule: to have 3 important things to do, not about 47 of them with no time to get them done. So, today, I'm back with 3 important things and 2 others.

What is on your To-Do list?

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maybe 4)

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I had to remind myself, I'm here for the mountains:

Ski touring and freeriding

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I'm improving my drawing skills:

Drawing the feelings I cannot explain

I have evenings to myself and I can do what I need to do for me:

Full moon ski tour

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What are your 3 things?

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3)

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You see, I'm taking pictures and screen shots of everything that catches my eye, inspires me, annoys me, makes me cry. I'm trying to keep myself busy.

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There is something, I never talk about: How much the full moon affects me. I never could sleep few nights before. For the last over a year and half I've been falling into depressions so deep, I beg not to wake up in the morning. I cried for last 3 nights and had one panic attack after another... so much for healing...

When I feel like that, I write... a lot... It's very dark and I hope, after picking the parts I want to publish, I'll be able to burn the dark sites to ashes.

It helps me to stop my mind from spinning into madness. I think it's because, when I write what's on my mind, I have to slow it down.

I hope this helps you with an idea how to work with your dark days and nights.

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