April and new beginnings

It was my birthday couple of days ago. I wanted to write a birthday blog but didn't. What did I do instead?

I planned a small ski mountaineer trip and took a friend along. It was a beautiful day.

Allalihorn, April 6th'25

I've been struggling with depression last few weeks. I couldn't sleep and I haven't eaten in days again. Well, at least I'm ready to wear bikini... Ok. you are right. I'm being sarcastic again. Trying to push my emotions under the carpet.

I smile for pictures again. I don't feel it yet. I see the beauty around, even if only with my head, not heart.

I had to remind myself what I have achieved since last year. Here just few for today:

1) I climbed and skied of Allalihorn last year for my birthday - first of my solo climbs this last year.

2) I started writing the book I've always wanted to write.

3) I started this blog! This one is big! I hate to share my private life. Many of my friends don't know me.

4) I started painting and drawing.

5) I started to play piano.

6) I solo climbed Lyskamm and Dufour (and few more mountains).

When I was writing this list last week, I wrote down about 20 things I started and I'm still doing since last year.

One of the things was, I inspired few people to follow their dreams. This one made me feel a bit proud of myself again. I'm born leader and I used to thrive on showing people their potential. I wanna get back to that.

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My drawing from beginning of April'25

Try to write a list of your achievements since last year, even the small ones, like I stopped drinking coffee and wine for over a month.

You can do it!